now that were getting closer and becoming more attached, i want to her more often which is pretty hard. and i am getting more jealous and more paranoid. i dont want to ruin this relationship because i am a paranoid guy. i snoop and snoop and try to catch her in a lie but that never happens. she is a good girlfriend but i cant wrap that around my head. i want to find a reason to get mad at her for. and a reason for her to feel bad and want her to need me. i just want to be loved. i like it when i am with her. she makes me feel so happy. but when i am not with her i wonder whats shes doing and what guy she is talking to. it clouds my mind with doubt and paranoia. ihate it but i cant help but think about what shes doing.