I think we all lead fast lives. To a point where we don't notice certain things that we should. Instead of being angry all the time and having your heart filled with it, we should just smile and be greatful for the things we have. I should be greatful to have her in my life. I should be greatful that she thinks of me the way she does. I think I love her but I'm not sure. I don't want to say it now because I will just be forcing it.



I feel like I messed it up last night. And it wasn't even her fault. She did nothing wrong and I took it out on her. I don't want it to end but I sure do act like I want it to. I don't want to lose her. But I think I'm going to. She didn't even say goodnight last night. I was going to say it but she hung up before I got a chance to. I called her right back and she didn't pick up so she couldn't have fallen asleep. I left her a voicemail, text, and called her again. I afraid this might be the final straw for her. And the worst part is that this couldve been prevented.