i spent last week trying to book one stupid show. i hate how bands say they are gonna play but drop off right before the show without even telling you. its like they could of told me weeks ago but decided to tell me they cant play. and i know they are bullshitting too. its not like they really have something else to do. and its pretty dumb how i try to help bands but a lot of them are greedy and just want more. i am doing them a favor but they are complaining about this and that. fuck you then. they just earned themselves a spot on my blacklist. and its growing by the day. dont come crying to me in the future when you need something. i only work with people/bands that are nice, cool, and grateful to be able to play music. Not greedy bastards who think they are rockstars already when they are playing 200 capacity venues.

I didnt get in. I dont know what I'm gonna do. I'm still alive but yeah i dont know about a couple months from now. I know I keep saying that but I say it for a reason. As I type this, anxiety builds up and I am weak.