Dont think bad thoughts. Isn't that the key? How can I feel good about myself when I'm feeding myself all of these poison and letting them get to my head. The only way for me to get out is by dreaming. I feel better when I imagine myself in other people's shoes. Those are the times when I feel the most relaxed and happy. I'm not an expert but isn't that your supposed to be doing? To be happy? Those people seem happy so why can't I be happy? Ehhh. Just as long as no one bothers me, then I'll be fine. But that never happens. Haven't had a stress free day in so long. I'm starting to feel like I'm not doing anything productive when I think I am. I'm done with this entry. Over and out.