i want to change myself so bad. i want to come back with a new identity because this saturated and used up. i'm thinking about cutting off communication with everyone except for about 5 people cause i want to come back with a bang. i have a deadline by the end of summer so if everything goes according to plan, my transformation will be complete. i seriously cant handle this anymore because there are so many distractions. i dont do anyting anymore and i have no motivation anymore. i fell into this slump and im trying hard to get out. i dont want to end up like them. i want to be the one that helps them no waiting to be helped.

i saw a dog running down the freeway the other night. i would freaking be devastated if any of my dogs ran away from us. i dont know what i'd do.