i cant sleep because i keep thinking about her. i really want to see her a lot. i know she is young but i dont want anything to happen to her. maybe i am just worried that she will end up falling for another guy since i dont see her as often. once a week is not nearly enough. i feel bad when i try to shut her out but at the same time, it hurts me in the end because i feel like a dick head. and i really want to go all the way with her but i am just too scared. and i know that will be a huge problem for us in the long run because she told me that it will be difficult for her too. i guess thats one of the main reasons why i should be worriedbecause some other guy can just give her the things that i can not. and i wont know because i live so far. i dont want to be played like a fool. a nd most importantly, i dont want waste my time. i just miss her so much.