it feels like every year, the holidays get more boring and lonelier. i have no one to celebrate it with and whats worse is that wherever i look, i see everyone happy but me.

i figured something out hte other day. when i get depressed, i do two things. shop and eat. thats why i have no money. i am depress all the time and it is hurting my wallet. i am going to die of a heart attack if i dont do something soon..