got my ibook fixed finally. took 110 bucks out of my pocket and now, i am really budgeting. it sucks when you have no money. i had to buy a 50 battery on ebay cause mines wont hold a charge anymore. i want to be able to take my laptop to places and not worry about the battery life.

the malheruex got their van today. looks so good. its a 94 but it looks like a new van. its a 15 passenger van so its freaking huge. when you sit all the way in the back, you cant even hear whats going on in the front. all it really needs is to swtich out the back two tires and to shampoo the seats and flooring on the inside. other than that, the van is in very gooood condition. the engine was rebuilt so it only has 36000 miles on it.

i have a lot of homework to do and i have no time to do it. i have my lifeline thats due on monday so i have to do that tomorrow and sunday. i still need to go to one more lifestyle account and i cant do it tomorrow cause i have a lot of other stuff to do. i need to manage my time more wisely because that is what messing me up. i spend too much time on crap and other stuff.

but other than that, i feel ok. my mind is always filled with anxiety and it is driving me nuts. i wish i have time to just sit alone in my room and lay in my bed for a couple days and not worry about anything. even in the summer when i didnt have a real job and any classes, i was always stressed cause of that bitch. im tired of it. i really am. i know i say this everytime im stressed but fuck that shit. im so sick and tired of this. fuuuuuuuuuuuuuck you. my mind is going crazy right now. i think i am manic depressive because of the way i act. im sick of that shit. i just want to take a bat to a fucking person and just beat the shit out of them. i have so much angered stored up and i dont know how to release it. i think i need therapy. so i can jsut talk to someone about it.