the next 31 days will be the hardest for me. i dont know what will happen. all i know everything will be changed and nothing will ever be the same. i might not even be here anymore. i've been having a lot of anxiety about what gonna happen and how i will deal with it. i am cursed. everything i do is bad. everyone around ends up getting hurt. i dont know what to do. in the end, theres only one thing left to do. and it might happen in the next 31 days.