I'm sitting here trying to manage my situation as best as I can. I don't know how I got in this mess in the first place. Good thing I have plan b in my back pocket. So until I can do that, I will try and keep myself busy and try insanely hard not to slack off because that is the last thing I want to happen right now. I do not need to turn into a freaking bum. I'm scared that I am not far off from that road.

But today, something lifted my hopes and spirts. But just for a little bit. I am waiting for something else to kill this "high." And cause me to sulk once again.

People that truly know me know that I am not the easiest person to deal with. I deny that fact though because its everyone else that I have trouble dealing with. I don't like to blame or to be blamed. I don't like putting my faults into other peoples hands. I try to make things easier for everyone around me. It could be when I'm working, driving, or just doing whatever...