i just dont think she is that much committed at all. she doesnt care about my feelings. she doesnt care about me. she doesnt care about how i would i react and what it would do to me. she just does whatever she wanted. this long distance thing isnt working out at all. i get paranoid because i dont know what shes doing. shes on a party bus right now going to some dudes house in LA and wont be back till 5am. and she expects me to sit here and do nothing? i dont know whats going on and what she might do. guys are gonna hit on her and i know she wont tell me.

and she doesnt seem like she wanna hang out. her friend lives 10 minutes away but she wants to hang out with her instead of me. she can hang out with her friend any day of the week but she chooses the day i can come down. i cant come down during the week cause of traffic and i cant stay long cause i gotta drive back. it takes a little bit over an hour for me to get there and thats without traffic.

i dont know what to do anymore. i just wish i wasnt so attached. i dont know what to do