Sometimes I wonder how my future is gonna turn out. How my future is written. People say that our future is in our hands but they also say "everything happens for a reason." Which means, our future isnt in our hands. I've been thinking lately how I am going to be in a couple years. I already wasted a couple doing nothing. I think this summer is for rebuilding and having fun. Life is too short for unnecessary things.

I also have been chasing after what I cant get. I dont want things that are in front of me. I want things that are far away from me. Maybe that is my motivation. I want to be something big. And thats the only way to get what I want. But what does that translate into now? I have to decide what I want to do right now so I can become what I want in the future.