from website updates to record store hopping to online tests to countless hours online. i feel like my life has been on repeat for the last three months. there is only one thing for me to break out of the repitition and it seems so far away, that i dont think i can reach it. i want to screw my life up so i can start all over again. i want to move away so i can start all over again. i want to have the chance to start over and do the things i want to do. i want to meet new people, try new things, and live a new life. i dont want to be here anymore. i dont want to live in california anymore. "fuck yeah, we can live like this"