so much for a new beginning....

sometimes i gotta find myself before moving on to someone else. maybe thats my problem all this time. i dont think i have found myself yet. i still act like a 14 year old and i am about to turn 21.
maybe i gotta act my age before i can do anything else.
maybe i gotta convince myself before i convince everyone else of who i am.
i am not lost
or confused.
just way off course
and i dont know how to get back on.
i am too far along to start over because my mind is already screwed up.
yeah everyones in on my secret.
you gotta please yourself before you please everyone else.
you gotta be happy before making everyone else happy.
all this time, it was the other wya around for me.
i dont know what to do with my life anymore.