insomnia takes over my life again as i am sitting here. i havent been able to sleep for the last three days. i dont know what is wrong with me.

i might be able to move out this summer finally. hopefull to west co or something where it will be close to everyone. that will mean i will have to transfer to the west co store. good because work sucks now. everyone is leaving or they have already left.

march is coming up and there are a bunch of shows that i am going to or i am trying to go to. i have four classes this semester and that should be a tough schedule to juggle. and i have work too on top of that. i wil try to work weekends only like i have been doing the last month...

my paycheck will go towards buying books tomorrow.

i know what i want to be for holloween. its a secret though. you'll find out in eight months.

i sometimes dream that i am a different person. i pretend that i am walking in someone else's shoes and that i am going to wherever they are going. i need to focus on where i am going instead of just brushing it off. i need to get my life back together and that is not going to happen when i am still her